Sunday, February 28, 2010
How do you swallow a skinny girl?
I am tired of being told that people can see the skinny girl inside of me. I am not Zeus, I cannot swallow people; however, I have heard this so often I'm starting to believe that I might have actually done it and just blocked it out. I know that people are just trying to be nice. They think that this type of comment is somehow going to motivate you to get on the right path and get healthy, but it just drives you crazy trying to remember how that skinny girl got inside... "What did I have for dinner last night? A skinny girl? No.... not a skinny girl." I put this comment in the same category as the almost as infamous, "You have such a pretty face." Seriously ?!? I mean come on... God forbid I have an ugly one because those people would have nothing positive to say; they were really grasping at straws to get that "pretty face" in there. People who have always been skinny, or skinny people that have gained weight in adulthood, do not understand the plight of those who had to go through the cruel, gauntlet of horror that is adolescence, or the scars that it causes. Truth be told, I don't know what is the right thing to say to someone to try and inspire them to lose weight. I have listened to people my entire life tell me that they want me to lose weight, that I need to lose weight, and I have never really heard them. Weight loss cannot happen because someone told you to do it. It has to come from within. You have to be ready, and I finally am! I don't know...I think it's just that I finally feel that skinny girl I swallowed trying to claw her way out. (Currently 294 pounds)
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I can truly relate to this blog! Many people believe it was our choice to be fat, because we couldn't stop eating. No one talks about the journey in becoming fat. Not to mention the immense journey to find our way back. Congratulations on losing 20 lbs in 26 days, that's amazing! Keep up the good work and by proxy inspiring many of the rest of us who have also swallowed people.
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